Then I wonder if I am not saved.
But, salvation is not the concern, but satisfaction.
I am saved, but I am not filled with the contentment of the love of the One who made me for Himself, not sparing His Own Beloved Son to make me His.
Instead, this terrifies me and overwhelms me and pretty soon, everything else does.
And, it's as though I have become a seductive, but rabid creature- starving and mad, consuming whatever I desire, but it is not enough. It is never enough. Hungry. Always, hungry. Hungering.
Cages by NeedToBreathe
Because.
Only Jesus Christ is enough.
Only He can satisfy. He is the Living Water. (John 4)
Yes, He saves me from my sins, but He forgives them and fills me with Himself, restoring and redeeming and healing me- making me more than a conqueror. (Romans 8:28-30) Killing my pride.
It's Him. It's always been Him.
So, when I seek out my shelters and my comforts and they don't satisfy me anymore...
It's God's mercy.
He's uprooting me so that He can root me back in Himself.
Help My Unbelief by Red Mountain Music
He's prying up the rotting layers of hardwoods and subflooring of my heart to fill up that dank, dark hole filled with grime.
He's going to dig out the disease, like a surgeon, cutting to drain the infection, cutting and making a wound to heal the body.
To make me whole.
To fill me with Him.
To plant Himself in the story of my heart.
To water it with His Son and Spirit, revealing His love to me, like sunshine in the darkness, filling me with joy, like the warmth of sunbeams and with peace, like a cool breeze.
And I will rest.
I don't need to know anymore or control anymore.
He's got me.
And it's enough.
It's the beginning of something new.
Restoration.
Redemption.
Marvelous Light by Ellie Holcomb
"Thou hast made us for Thyself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it finds its rest in Thee." -Augustine of Hippo
What great mercy this is, O God!
All I have is Christ is the great and thankful cry of our hearts for otherwise we would settle for mud pies instead of the wedding feast.
We would succumb to our enemies or fall into temptation, remaining slaves to sin, if not for Your gracious mercy on us.
Thank You for saving us.
"We rest on Thee, our Shield and our Defender,
Thine is the battle, Thine shall be the praise.
When passing through, the gates of pearly splendor,
Victors, we rest with Thee, through endless days."
(4th verse of the hymn We Rest on Thee)
We were made for relationship in Him; to rest in Him and receive the free gift of Jesus Christ.
He DID IT.
It had nothing to do with my surrendering or striving.
It had everything to do with the blood of Jesus.
Nothing but the Blood of Jesus
We aren't too late, too gone, too sinful, too stiff-necked, too doubting, too fearful to know that Jesus Christ saves and loves us.
That doesn't mean we won't still struggle, but His love is greater!!!! (James 1; Romans 8; Hebrews 12)
Brighter Days by Eddie Kirkland
It saves us and transforms us more and more after Jesus Christ, the image of God, the Father, the Most HIGH God!
That is AWESOME NEWS!
Praise the Lord!
May the Lord give you peace and comfort in the love of Jesus Christ.
Ubi Caritas arr. by Maurice Durufle
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